It seems so surreal and hard to grasp that at any moment I will be a mommy. I am just trying to keep my self busy while always knowing in the back of my head that I could go into labor at any moment.
I feel very proud of myself in the fact that I made it through the two first nursing quarters without a hitch..It was getting difficult at the end with how big I am getting but I made it nonetheless!! I try not to think about how much I am going to miss my new nursing friends and am always trying to remember that God had different plans and they will be lifelong friends.
Everything on my "before baby is due" list is complete. I have finished the baby's room, bags are packed, house is spotless, carseat has been fire department approved and my toes are going to be painted today...It is time for Reid to come.
It is the weirdest feeling to see my house full of baby stuff and not have a baby yet.
I think it is cute that my mother-in-law has her bags ready and packed. She is just waiting for the phone call so she can come join us in the delivery room. It is a moment I want her to remember forever (even at the expense of my own dignity). Thank goodness for the timing and the fact that she is retired. I am more than happy to have the help and can't wait to experience this new journey.
Jeremy would like baby to come tomorrow at 4pm. He says it will make for a nice long weekend..ha ha. If only we could pick. I would have picked Monday.
So here I am, relaxing and trying to enjoy the small things before my life changes forever. My biggest fear is knowing that Jeremy and I will have a different relationship than we do now. We have been together 5 years and all 5 of those years have been packed full of trips and excitement. I love our relationship right now and to know that it is going to be different, in a good way, brings fear. We have had many talks and are prepared for the change...as much as we can. I am very thankful we didn't rush into parenthood because our relationship has already withstood a few trials. We are stronger than ever and now able to take on the most important journey of our lives together.
I am very thankful for family. We have been blessed so much with wonderful gifts and advice and just the knowledge that if we need anything at any time, we will have help. I wish they lived closer to us but I know I can't have EVERYTHING I want. I try not to think about next year and the daycare situation. I truly wish I could have grandma watch him while I finish nursing but I have to pray and know that everything will fall into place the way it is supposed to..
Cheers to the last few days, minutes, or hours until I become a mother! I have made my mistakes, learned from the past, and now here I sit....ready to impart my wisdom to the little gift inside of me...
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
These are the days...
I knew all along that these last weeks would be hard with the amount of school and the all around fun that pregnancy brings. I have been telling myself that it will go by fast but it sure doesn't seem like it. I am huge everywhere, and I can't get comfortable to save my life. I am always hot and I am now experiencing back pain, swollen legs and feet, restless legs, heartburn, and charlie horses! People keep asking me if Ive experienced this pregnancy side effect or that pregnancy side effect and I will say no just to experience it the next day!
I am happy to have any symptom of pregnancy because I am going to have Reid in the end, It just has been really getting hard with having to sit through long classes and stand through long clinicals. The good news is that I only have less than 4 weeks of class, one test, 5 clinicals, and a final left! Phew... I can do it!
Jeremy and I attended some birthing classes and are really glad we did!
We learned so many things about the process of birth that it really seemed to have an effect on calming any nerves. The funny thing is that we had the OB unit in my nursing class the next week so I was able to do well on the test and also learn even more about the birthing process.
I honestly haven't been nervous about giving birth. I feel honored and excited that I was blessed with this pregnancy and think that the pain and labor is all part of that blessing. Call me crazy but I can't wait until my water breaks!!
Jeremy and I received our first big purchase in the mail for baby, the changing table, and after hours of putting it together it was defective. We just received a different one in the mail but I didn't realize it was from the same company and so I am hoping all goes well...
Tomorrow I head out to my first baby shower. I am in awe and denial that I even qualify for one of these things.. I get to see some good friends that I haven't seen in a while so that makes me happy.
The only thing we really have left is a breast-feeding class (hopefully I can convince Jeremy to join although I don't blame him if he opts out) and one more baby shower. Come the beginning of September I plan on getting this house squeeky clean and relaxing before my life changes!!
I am happy to have any symptom of pregnancy because I am going to have Reid in the end, It just has been really getting hard with having to sit through long classes and stand through long clinicals. The good news is that I only have less than 4 weeks of class, one test, 5 clinicals, and a final left! Phew... I can do it!
Jeremy and I attended some birthing classes and are really glad we did!
We learned so many things about the process of birth that it really seemed to have an effect on calming any nerves. The funny thing is that we had the OB unit in my nursing class the next week so I was able to do well on the test and also learn even more about the birthing process.
I honestly haven't been nervous about giving birth. I feel honored and excited that I was blessed with this pregnancy and think that the pain and labor is all part of that blessing. Call me crazy but I can't wait until my water breaks!!
Jeremy and I received our first big purchase in the mail for baby, the changing table, and after hours of putting it together it was defective. We just received a different one in the mail but I didn't realize it was from the same company and so I am hoping all goes well...
Tomorrow I head out to my first baby shower. I am in awe and denial that I even qualify for one of these things.. I get to see some good friends that I haven't seen in a while so that makes me happy.
The only thing we really have left is a breast-feeding class (hopefully I can convince Jeremy to join although I don't blame him if he opts out) and one more baby shower. Come the beginning of September I plan on getting this house squeeky clean and relaxing before my life changes!!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
3rd Trimester!
It is very hard for me to believe that I am already in my third trimester!
Things have been very busy here in the Ayers household with school and yard work and all the activities that summer brings.
The weather here has just started to get warm and I can already tell that I am going to be miserable. For some reason when I am out in the heat I just feel like my skin is melting right off of my body and it has barely even been in the 80's! I can only imagine what it will be like when the weather gets in the 90's and 100's...
I finished my first quarter of Nursing with A's and I feel really good about that. This next quarter which will be the last before baby is born already starts on Monday. I have bought everything to make 12 hour clinicals a little more enjoyable while being in my 8th and 9th month...Maternity scrub pants (not allowed but what they don't know cant hurt), nice shoes, and a maternity belt to help hold up baby belly weight while standing on my feet so long. I am looking forward to working in Med/Oncology and hopefully even be able to stand in during a surgery!
We finally cleaned out our computer/spare room and officially have made it into baby Reid's room. Jeremy's parents came over to help us paint and add border to the walls. It looks adorable and I am waiting for everything to really hit me. I will add photos of the baby's room. I have finally finished my baby shower lists and I have a feeling once school starts on Monday, everything is going to fly by and the next thing I know I will be taking my final and waiting the last 2 weeks until I am due. I am anxious and excited and have a hard time believing it is true!
Registering for the baby shower was very overwhelming for me. There are so many products and many kinds of the same products that I felt clueless. It seems every mother I run into has some "advice" to give me about their favorite product and I personally just want to find out what my little guy will like all on my own. I know most people will just buy whatever they have found useful and I hope that really happens. I have no clue what baby bottles or pacifiers or breast pump is the best!! Being a first time mom can be overwhelming at times, but I have enjoyed every minute of the journey so far.
At my last appt. I was still under the normal weight gain for a pregnancy at this stage and that made me feel good. I don't feel like that is true by the way I look though.. I have a hard time doing the things I once did and for some reason that makes me feel discouraged when I know it shouldn't. My husband and I have had to cut our walks down in time and also make sure we go when it isn't too hot..
I had to drink that really sweet drink (which I thought was good) and get my blood taken to check for gestational diabetes. I will know at my next appt if I passed or failed. My appt's have been raised to every two weeks and I can't believe I am already to that point!
Every time I have seen the doctor he has said I am measuring ahead (fundus or size of uterus should be the same amount of centimeters as gestational age in weeks or how far along I am) and that I should even out eventually. Well, that hasn't happened yet, in fact, the doctor is going to watch me more carefully because I went from 1/2 a centimeter ahead to 1 centimeter ahead and now am on 2 1/2 centimeters ahead. That could be nothing or it could be baby Reid is large, long, or both and we might have to discuss birthing options when I get a little closer...Yikes! I hope I don't have a beefer on my hands...Although Jeremy was almost 9 pounds so that could be an issue..That would explain the fact that my stomach seems to double in size every time I wake up..
As long as I make it to my final at 37 1/2 weeks; he can come any time after that.
Things have been very busy here in the Ayers household with school and yard work and all the activities that summer brings.
The weather here has just started to get warm and I can already tell that I am going to be miserable. For some reason when I am out in the heat I just feel like my skin is melting right off of my body and it has barely even been in the 80's! I can only imagine what it will be like when the weather gets in the 90's and 100's...
I finished my first quarter of Nursing with A's and I feel really good about that. This next quarter which will be the last before baby is born already starts on Monday. I have bought everything to make 12 hour clinicals a little more enjoyable while being in my 8th and 9th month...Maternity scrub pants (not allowed but what they don't know cant hurt), nice shoes, and a maternity belt to help hold up baby belly weight while standing on my feet so long. I am looking forward to working in Med/Oncology and hopefully even be able to stand in during a surgery!
We finally cleaned out our computer/spare room and officially have made it into baby Reid's room. Jeremy's parents came over to help us paint and add border to the walls. It looks adorable and I am waiting for everything to really hit me. I will add photos of the baby's room. I have finally finished my baby shower lists and I have a feeling once school starts on Monday, everything is going to fly by and the next thing I know I will be taking my final and waiting the last 2 weeks until I am due. I am anxious and excited and have a hard time believing it is true!
Registering for the baby shower was very overwhelming for me. There are so many products and many kinds of the same products that I felt clueless. It seems every mother I run into has some "advice" to give me about their favorite product and I personally just want to find out what my little guy will like all on my own. I know most people will just buy whatever they have found useful and I hope that really happens. I have no clue what baby bottles or pacifiers or breast pump is the best!! Being a first time mom can be overwhelming at times, but I have enjoyed every minute of the journey so far.
At my last appt. I was still under the normal weight gain for a pregnancy at this stage and that made me feel good. I don't feel like that is true by the way I look though.. I have a hard time doing the things I once did and for some reason that makes me feel discouraged when I know it shouldn't. My husband and I have had to cut our walks down in time and also make sure we go when it isn't too hot..
I had to drink that really sweet drink (which I thought was good) and get my blood taken to check for gestational diabetes. I will know at my next appt if I passed or failed. My appt's have been raised to every two weeks and I can't believe I am already to that point!
Every time I have seen the doctor he has said I am measuring ahead (fundus or size of uterus should be the same amount of centimeters as gestational age in weeks or how far along I am) and that I should even out eventually. Well, that hasn't happened yet, in fact, the doctor is going to watch me more carefully because I went from 1/2 a centimeter ahead to 1 centimeter ahead and now am on 2 1/2 centimeters ahead. That could be nothing or it could be baby Reid is large, long, or both and we might have to discuss birthing options when I get a little closer...Yikes! I hope I don't have a beefer on my hands...Although Jeremy was almost 9 pounds so that could be an issue..That would explain the fact that my stomach seems to double in size every time I wake up..
As long as I make it to my final at 37 1/2 weeks; he can come any time after that.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Reid Daniel Ayers
Well for all of you that do not have a Facebook, we have decided on the name Reid Daniel Ayers. I have loved Reid from the beginning but it took a little convincing on Jeremy's part.
From the start I chose 4 names I really liked and Jeremy started calling the baby Daniel. I told him I wanted to see all of my options and when I feel like I know the right name I will let him know and he can see if he likes it too.
Jeremy surprised me with a baby name book one day and we sat down together. Much to our dismay this particular book favored Hindu, and Middle Eastern names. I swear I couldn't find one name I liked.
Jeremy found a couple and with the ones I liked we created a poll. Landon won by a landslide and that was one I really liked before I got pregnant but that name has become popular all of a sudden and I didn't feel like baby was a Landon.
I kept calling baby Reid and Jeremy kept calling him Daniel. I finally told Jeremy that Daniel Reid, or Reid Daniel are our final choices but we need to choose quickly before he gets confused!
While I was just about to fall asleep one night Jeremy came into the room and said while he was fixing the Jeep one of his parts was made by a Reid and they sent him a sticker. He was sure it was a sign....there it was..our name :)
On June 1st I get another anatomy scan to look at baby Reid's parts. The Dr. said that he was a bit active and they could only see certain organs and would like to make sure the rest are developing great. What they could see was great and baby was measuring around 5 days ahead of schedule. Mommy does not like this news and hopes he evens out because I will get out of Summer quarter only 2 WEEKS before due date. I have been praying for a healthy pregnancy without any complications, bed rest, ect.... I need every day of this pregnancy to prepare!!
From the start I chose 4 names I really liked and Jeremy started calling the baby Daniel. I told him I wanted to see all of my options and when I feel like I know the right name I will let him know and he can see if he likes it too.
Jeremy surprised me with a baby name book one day and we sat down together. Much to our dismay this particular book favored Hindu, and Middle Eastern names. I swear I couldn't find one name I liked.
Jeremy found a couple and with the ones I liked we created a poll. Landon won by a landslide and that was one I really liked before I got pregnant but that name has become popular all of a sudden and I didn't feel like baby was a Landon.
I kept calling baby Reid and Jeremy kept calling him Daniel. I finally told Jeremy that Daniel Reid, or Reid Daniel are our final choices but we need to choose quickly before he gets confused!
While I was just about to fall asleep one night Jeremy came into the room and said while he was fixing the Jeep one of his parts was made by a Reid and they sent him a sticker. He was sure it was a sign....there it was..our name :)
On June 1st I get another anatomy scan to look at baby Reid's parts. The Dr. said that he was a bit active and they could only see certain organs and would like to make sure the rest are developing great. What they could see was great and baby was measuring around 5 days ahead of schedule. Mommy does not like this news and hopes he evens out because I will get out of Summer quarter only 2 WEEKS before due date. I have been praying for a healthy pregnancy without any complications, bed rest, ect.... I need every day of this pregnancy to prepare!!
Monday, May 3, 2010
It's a boy!!
Monday April 26th was the big appt to find out the baby's sex. I made the appt for 5pm so that Jeremy wouldn't have to leave work too early. I had a huge hard test that morning and thought that would consume my thoughts but waiting until 5pm was very hard! I haven't been that nervous in a long time and I was shaky all day.
The time finally came for us to be in the waiting room and I was soo antsy. Jeremy arrived calm as always as we waited for a while. As I sat there imagining what the outcome of our appt would be Jeremy seemed a little more concerned about dinner. He was hungry and kept asking me what I wanted!! I had no clue what I wanted and was barely even hungry because I was nervous. I told him I was going to blog about how concerned he was about dinner that night right before we would find out the sex of our baby..
So the tech examined all the measurements as I searched for any sign of a boy part or girl part. She finally reached the measurements for the legs and I thought I saw a little penis. I looked at her and said, "That is a penis isn't it?" She said, "I didn't get that good of a view but if I were to make a guess I would say boy..."
Nice... I wasn't about to take that as a final answer so I went to the bathroom and did a little dance and jumped up and down so baby would cooperate. When I went back in the tech tried again and even though baby was very active she said that girls dont have anything extra in between the legs and she is pretty sure she saw the twig and berries.
I prepared for that moment since I became pregnant. I just always had a feeling that it would be a boy and I wouldn't care either way. Of course if i was being honest I wanted a girl VERY bad. I always imagined a girl whenever I thought of kids and the fact that I was ACTUALLY having a boy was starting to hit me.
We went out to eat after our appt and I was trying to be upbeat. We had called immediate family and text everyone else and I was having fun with all of the positive responses. I excused myself to the bathroom and when I was flushing the toilet my phone fell out of my pocket and landed in the toilet!! I was not very happy...
I washed off my phone and went back to dinner. Jeremy asked me why I was being so quiet and I lost it...I started to cry so hard and couldn't stop. The waiter came to ask us for our order but quickly excused himself as I was making an ass of myself. I just couldn't believe I was having a boy.. I wanted Jeremy to have a little girl so badly because he just loves them and I really wanted a girl too.
Jeremy said that having a boy is very very good news and crying about it makes him sad. I told him it was the disappointment of not having a girl, not the fact that I am having a boy. I wanted to have another girl in the house so I wouldn't be outnumbered all of the time and feel left out. Jeremy was very encouraging and reassured me that having a son of my own will be completely different.
Needless to say I am more than thrilled now and cannot wait for the arrival of our little guy. We do not have a name picked out yet but Jeremy calls him Daniel. I have a feeling it might stick..
I have felt the baby many times but not any big movements on the outside of my belly yet. I love being able to feel baby move around inside of me. It is one of the best feelings I have ever experienced...
More to come when we officially pick a name!
The time finally came for us to be in the waiting room and I was soo antsy. Jeremy arrived calm as always as we waited for a while. As I sat there imagining what the outcome of our appt would be Jeremy seemed a little more concerned about dinner. He was hungry and kept asking me what I wanted!! I had no clue what I wanted and was barely even hungry because I was nervous. I told him I was going to blog about how concerned he was about dinner that night right before we would find out the sex of our baby..
So the tech examined all the measurements as I searched for any sign of a boy part or girl part. She finally reached the measurements for the legs and I thought I saw a little penis. I looked at her and said, "That is a penis isn't it?" She said, "I didn't get that good of a view but if I were to make a guess I would say boy..."
Nice... I wasn't about to take that as a final answer so I went to the bathroom and did a little dance and jumped up and down so baby would cooperate. When I went back in the tech tried again and even though baby was very active she said that girls dont have anything extra in between the legs and she is pretty sure she saw the twig and berries.
I prepared for that moment since I became pregnant. I just always had a feeling that it would be a boy and I wouldn't care either way. Of course if i was being honest I wanted a girl VERY bad. I always imagined a girl whenever I thought of kids and the fact that I was ACTUALLY having a boy was starting to hit me.
We went out to eat after our appt and I was trying to be upbeat. We had called immediate family and text everyone else and I was having fun with all of the positive responses. I excused myself to the bathroom and when I was flushing the toilet my phone fell out of my pocket and landed in the toilet!! I was not very happy...
I washed off my phone and went back to dinner. Jeremy asked me why I was being so quiet and I lost it...I started to cry so hard and couldn't stop. The waiter came to ask us for our order but quickly excused himself as I was making an ass of myself. I just couldn't believe I was having a boy.. I wanted Jeremy to have a little girl so badly because he just loves them and I really wanted a girl too.
Jeremy said that having a boy is very very good news and crying about it makes him sad. I told him it was the disappointment of not having a girl, not the fact that I am having a boy. I wanted to have another girl in the house so I wouldn't be outnumbered all of the time and feel left out. Jeremy was very encouraging and reassured me that having a son of my own will be completely different.
Needless to say I am more than thrilled now and cannot wait for the arrival of our little guy. We do not have a name picked out yet but Jeremy calls him Daniel. I have a feeling it might stick..
I have felt the baby many times but not any big movements on the outside of my belly yet. I love being able to feel baby move around inside of me. It is one of the best feelings I have ever experienced...
More to come when we officially pick a name!
Saturday, April 24, 2010
2 More Days!!
I can't believe I will know if I am having a boy or girl in two days!!
I am soo anxious and not because it matters but because this is one of those "life changing" moments..
That is all for now. Big announcement coming in two days!
I am soo anxious and not because it matters but because this is one of those "life changing" moments..
That is all for now. Big announcement coming in two days!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Week 17 doctors appt
Earlier this week I had my 17 week doctors appt. I was forced to choose a doc and ended up choosing a male. I am very nervous about that fact but he has an outstanding reputation and "tries" to deliver all his own babies. The nurses refer to him as the "cute Dr." which doesn't make my nerves any better.
I made the appt. to find out the sex of the baby so Monday night April 26th at 5pm this pregnancy is going to get a whole lot more real.I get a nervous stomach every time I think of that appt. It is a very, very exciting day for us but it will really set everything in stone. I will be having a son or a daughter and not just an "it".
I still think baby is a boy. I keep thinking about him as this chubby little cutie with no hair and wearing little t-shirts with Jeremy's business logo on it.
Jeremy already has big plans for baby. He is thinking small quad or dirt bike for when it gets a little older. He can't wait to finally do all of the things that daddy's get to do with their children. I asked him what would happen if my feeling is wrong and we have a girl? He told me that he will just make sure the quad is pink :)
I thought that was very cute!
Nursing school started and I just LOVE it! I enjoy learning and it doesn't really feel like a chore. Everything I learn from here on out will be vital to my career so I soak it up like a sponge. I have already made friends for life and the thought of me having to leave them at the end of summer quarter makes me a little teary eyed. I know that they will still be around, but I am a little sad that I will not be in the same class with them the whole time. I know my perspective about that will change when baby bean arrives.
It feels a little different for me to have two life changing things happening at once. My mind is focused on being a mom and getting baby's room organized one minute, and the next minute I am trying to memorize all of the vital lung sound spots on the human body. Both of those things make me very happy and I happen to be embarking on them at the same time!
I made the appt. to find out the sex of the baby so Monday night April 26th at 5pm this pregnancy is going to get a whole lot more real.I get a nervous stomach every time I think of that appt. It is a very, very exciting day for us but it will really set everything in stone. I will be having a son or a daughter and not just an "it".
I still think baby is a boy. I keep thinking about him as this chubby little cutie with no hair and wearing little t-shirts with Jeremy's business logo on it.
Jeremy already has big plans for baby. He is thinking small quad or dirt bike for when it gets a little older. He can't wait to finally do all of the things that daddy's get to do with their children. I asked him what would happen if my feeling is wrong and we have a girl? He told me that he will just make sure the quad is pink :)
I thought that was very cute!
Nursing school started and I just LOVE it! I enjoy learning and it doesn't really feel like a chore. Everything I learn from here on out will be vital to my career so I soak it up like a sponge. I have already made friends for life and the thought of me having to leave them at the end of summer quarter makes me a little teary eyed. I know that they will still be around, but I am a little sad that I will not be in the same class with them the whole time. I know my perspective about that will change when baby bean arrives.
It feels a little different for me to have two life changing things happening at once. My mind is focused on being a mom and getting baby's room organized one minute, and the next minute I am trying to memorize all of the vital lung sound spots on the human body. Both of those things make me very happy and I happen to be embarking on them at the same time!
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