Last Blog before I am a mommy!

It seems so surreal and hard to grasp that at any moment I will be a mommy. I am just trying to keep my self busy while always knowing in the back of my head that I could go into labor at any moment.
I feel very proud of myself in the fact that I made it through the two first nursing quarters without a hitch..It was getting difficult at the end with how big I am getting but I made it nonetheless!! I try not to think about how much I am going to miss my new nursing friends and am always trying to remember that God had different plans and they will be lifelong friends.

Everything on my "before baby is due" list is complete. I have finished the baby's room, bags are packed, house is spotless, carseat has been fire department approved and my toes are going to be painted today...It is time for Reid to come.
It is the weirdest feeling to see my house full of baby stuff and not have a baby yet.

I think it is cute that my mother-in-law has her bags ready and packed. She is just waiting for the phone call so she can come join us in the delivery room. It is a moment I want her to remember forever (even at the expense of my own dignity). Thank goodness for the timing and the fact that she is retired. I am more than happy to have the help and can't wait to experience this new journey.

Jeremy would like baby to come tomorrow at 4pm. He says it will make for a nice long weekend..ha ha. If only we could pick. I would have picked Monday.
So here I am, relaxing and trying to enjoy the small things before my life changes forever. My biggest fear is knowing that Jeremy and I will have a different relationship than we do now. We have been together 5 years and all 5 of those years have been packed full of trips and excitement. I love our relationship right now and to know that it is going to be different, in a good way, brings fear. We have had many talks and are prepared for the change...as much as we can. I am very thankful we didn't rush into parenthood because our relationship has already withstood a few trials. We are stronger than ever and now able to take on the most important journey of our lives together.

I am very thankful for family. We have been blessed so much with wonderful gifts and advice and just the knowledge that if we need anything at any time, we will have help. I wish they lived closer to us but I know I can't have EVERYTHING I want. I try not to think about next year and the daycare situation. I truly wish I could have grandma watch him while I finish nursing but I have to pray and know that everything will fall into place the way it is supposed to..

Cheers to the last few days, minutes, or hours until I become a mother! I have made my mistakes, learned from the past, and now here I sit....ready to impart my wisdom to the little gift inside of me...