Things are changing...

Not only am I growing at a very rapid pace (even though it is supposed to be a joyous occasion I can't help notice places that shouldn't be growing) but my life is changing in many different ways. I started thinking today about how nice it has been the last couple of weeks. I have had spare time to clean things that have been on my list for a while, shop, and catch up on T.V. shows..as I was taking my sweet time getting ready today the future started to really hit me. Starting Monday my life will be a whirlwind. I start the nursing program and that will take up all of my time..Before I know it I will have a baby and that will take up all of my time until I go back to the nursing program. At that time I will be attempting school and a baby and I can only imagine how that is going to go. After school comes the career I have dreamed about for a while.
It all starts to feel like too much and I just when I realize I have forgotten to take a breath for 2 minutes I remember one thing...I am not the only person who has done this before. There are many students that are parents, and many people with careers and babies. After lots of hard work I will be fulfilled because I will have my family AND a career...Ahhh....it will be worth it.

I am surprised at the comments I get. It is almost like people are daring me to fail. Of course I have no idea how to be a parent and go to school, but I am going to do it. I have the will and determination and that is all I need. Lately, when I seem to be getting the "just wait until you are a parent speech." Thanks for all those comments. You don't think that when I see a kid in a grocery store throwing a fit that I think about myself in that position? WRONG!! I think about it all the time. I actually dwell on it sometimes and it freaks me out..Trust me I do think about how hard it is and NO I do not judge you when your kid acts up. Just because I don't have any kids right now doesn't mean that your kid annoys me and in fact it offends me to think that you think of me that way.

I guess part of me thought I would get more encouragement but I seem to mainly hear about how HARD it is going to be. I would rather hear how good you feel at the end of the day. I figure many people think that if they don't warn me I will regret my decision or something. I do have a clue about the hard part because I have a step child, but I am now looking forward to experiencing the good along with the bad, the joys and the pains..

So enough about that. More on baby stuff. So, our spare room is getting cleaned out and slowly, and I mean slowly, preparing to become a baby room. I currently use the room as my closet and computer room and cannot even fathom where all of my clothes and our desk and computer are going to go. I am hoping that one day everything will "poof" be ready but that is just dreaming. I find out the sex of the baby in about 3-4 weeks. I cannot wait!! At that point it will become a he/she instead of an it and I will be that much closer to feeling like a mommy.
I still can barely stand the smell/taste of meat, but at least now I can be in the general area without feeling like I am going to pass out.
I have had major headaches that just won't go away. Many people say it is from the extra hormones. I have done everything that has been suggested and they are still there so I think they may be right.
Also, for an update on my previous blog about my progesterone issues: I went to a new OB and she took me off all the progesterone pills and cream! I have been off of it all for over 2 weeks and everything seems to be just fine. What a relief to be done with that drama :)
I hope to keep this blog up to date during my schooling. I am pretty nervous and excited to start. I am at the point where everything is ready and I just want to start. My next appt is a week from Monday so I will try and blog at that time!
Happy Spring Everyone.